Hm. I never did this before, so it's quite possible that i will be screwing it up. But maybe not. We'll see.
today i am running from a project that i can't seem to finish. or really-properly start. my brain is jammed. perhaps this will un-jam it if i can ramble all the useless doings out of my head.
There was some talk over the weekend about grad school. I don't know about grad school. I mean, I think I'd like to go, but I don't have any money to speak of. Also (and perhaps a bigger dilemma) is that I have NO idea what to go back for. I'd go for theatre...but...it isn't as if what I want to do for a living will be helped by that. Also, I could go for education, but then i'd end up stabbing my eyes out. I can't think of anything more droll and useless than education classes. Never once has a teacher ever thought "Hmm...what would Jung do in this situation" when a fight breaks out in class. No way. Not ever. And teaching me how to set up my classroom or 'discipline' the students is even more pointless. so i'd rather not. so then...where do i go? english? british literature? how useful will that be. Do you see my dilemma? whatever I go back for isn't going to do anything but cost money i don't have, and not help me make any more. well, OKAY, it might make me smarter and yadda yadda yadda...but jeez louise. is that worth a 400$ SL payment every month? Can't justify it at this EXACT moment....but who knows....
so... what to do what to do. well, maybe this blog will lead me to do what i have always wanted to do: write a book/play/novella...etc you get the idea. I would really like to get officially published somewhere. that would be ultra-cool. Except for i have the attention span of a small mammal. a squirrel, i think. yes, a squirrel. with their darty behaviors, easy distractions and bushy tail...yeah i think that's me.so as you can see, i have trouble maintaining my momentum.
so. there you have it. so many problems, so little time. and in the mean time i am still expected to clean my house, do laundry, get dressed everyday, and get through this project. ugh ugh ugh. alas. 'tis futile.
today i am running from a project that i can't seem to finish. or really-properly start. my brain is jammed. perhaps this will un-jam it if i can ramble all the useless doings out of my head.
There was some talk over the weekend about grad school. I don't know about grad school. I mean, I think I'd like to go, but I don't have any money to speak of. Also (and perhaps a bigger dilemma) is that I have NO idea what to go back for. I'd go for theatre...but...it isn't as if what I want to do for a living will be helped by that. Also, I could go for education, but then i'd end up stabbing my eyes out. I can't think of anything more droll and useless than education classes. Never once has a teacher ever thought "Hmm...what would Jung do in this situation" when a fight breaks out in class. No way. Not ever. And teaching me how to set up my classroom or 'discipline' the students is even more pointless. so i'd rather not. so then...where do i go? english? british literature? how useful will that be. Do you see my dilemma? whatever I go back for isn't going to do anything but cost money i don't have, and not help me make any more. well, OKAY, it might make me smarter and yadda yadda yadda...but jeez louise. is that worth a 400$ SL payment every month? Can't justify it at this EXACT moment....but who knows....
so... what to do what to do. well, maybe this blog will lead me to do what i have always wanted to do: write a book/play/novella...etc you get the idea. I would really like to get officially published somewhere. that would be ultra-cool. Except for i have the attention span of a small mammal. a squirrel, i think. yes, a squirrel. with their darty behaviors, easy distractions and bushy tail...yeah i think that's me.so as you can see, i have trouble maintaining my momentum.
so. there you have it. so many problems, so little time. and in the mean time i am still expected to clean my house, do laundry, get dressed everyday, and get through this project. ugh ugh ugh. alas. 'tis futile.
posted by I am a motorboat mom @ 12:55 PM
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